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[aiwillneversmile]

Because I'm trying to find the best way to get you to leave without running to my sister after.

[fallingleaf]

I'm not going to tell your sister. I do intend to keep our conversations between us, and not add to her anxiety.

[ he sighs ]

Besides, I think she knows as well. She just doesn't have the words... or does not wish to think about the implications.

[aiwillneversmile]

So, you'll do it for her. Thoughtful.

[fallingleaf]

If it was just for her, I could walk away.

[aiwillneversmile]

So, I have my own charming character to blame as well.

[fallingleaf]

I am sure you would be more charming if you would ask for help.

[aiwillneversmile]

Do you want to help torture and kill someone?

[fallingleaf]

No. I've had my fair share of killing, and I would prefer to never do so again.

[aiwillneversmile]

Am I more charming now?

[fallingleaf]

Marginally, but that is not the only help you could ask for.

[aiwillneversmile]

What other help could I ask for?

[fallingleaf]

Hmm... Perhaps had I not seen into your personal life through your sister, or through the videos you got her, or even through your own words, I might believe that you could be the type of person who would only obsess about revenge. Who could see no other path.

But now I'm fairly certain it is willful blindness around yourself.

You are not the only person who has experienced loss in this place-- or even experienced great loss.

You are not the only person who struggles against the weight of that loss. As I said before, you're quite adept at recognizing it in others with the right cues.

But if I tell you every possible thing you could ask for help with, you would need to be willing to accept it. Or else, would it not be another "lie" to you?

[aiwillneversmile]

. . . It wouldn't. Does that mean you won't share your ideas?

[fallingleaf]

I would.

It would be cruel of me to imply such, and then to refuse to help in the end.

But my greatest piece of advice would be to look at yourself honestly.

[ he has only an inkling of how tall of an order that is but. y'know. ]

[aiwillneversmile]

And after I do that?

[fallingleaf]

Then I'm sure you'll realize there are many things you could use help with.

But you should do that first.

[aiwillneversmile]

You truly believe that I can't see myself or my actions fully.

[fallingleaf]

Yes, I do.

[aiwillneversmile]

But you can see me better than I can see myself. Right?

[fallingleaf]

Aqua.

[aiwillneversmile]

I'm not arguing, just confirming.

[fallingleaf]

You're not confirming, either.

You're twisting my words.

[ a sigh. ]

Please consider what I said seriously.

[aiwillneversmile]

No.

[fallingleaf]

... I see.

[aiwillneversmile]

[there is the tiniest thread of anger in his expression but otherwise still locked up]

Still going to stick around?